~The LUVS of her life...~
*GOD!!!*
*LAUGHTER!!!*=))
*NATURE* (The sand and sea!^^)
*READING*
*LOVE!*
*CHILDREN!!*
*MUSIC*=)
*FRIENDSHIPS*
*FOOD*
*TRAVELLING*
*BEACH*
*SIMPLICITY*
*BEING A CHILD OF GOD*
This entry, i will tok about sumthing more personal, yeah, n tat is de difference i experienced in my life after i accepted de Lord into my heart=)
I still remember vividly me asking my mum constantly before i accepted Christ, y do i feel this emptiness in my heart even though my life seems to b going smoothly? My mum's reply was, is it bcos u have sum problems known only to yourself which cannot b told? No, tat was certainly not de case. Even though i did not have much worries at tat time, i still felt very empty n insecure.
The second case is, whenever sumone lets me down or disappoint me, i wil try even harder to please de person, leading myself into greater misery, as they could not match up to de expectations i wanted from dem. i gave a lot of my time, money, emotions, love etc. to dem. Hence i expected dem to give de same back 2 me. however, when it did not happen, i felt very disspointed n lonely. i felt unappreciated n worthless. i even doubted my existence in this world, whether i should have even come into this world in de first place. It was tat bad. i lived day by day, putting false hopes on people, n getting rejected n disappointed in the end. Tat was de lowest peak of my life.
DEN, MY HOPE CAME. I went to church one sunday, not expecting anything. I went there merely out of curiousity. However, de service there was great. It made me realise tat i m not pathetic n defeated n worthless at all. My selfworth is not determined by the people around me but by Jesus my Lord! I m not defeated by my problems. Instead, i m already victorious n strong in Jesus Christ, for he has paid de price for us by dying on de cross. It was tat day when i accepted de Lord=)
Now, i can confidently say tat i have never felt tat emptiness n loneliness i had felt before i accepted de Lord ever again. I m never hopeless. Whenever i m persecuted or condemned or insulted, i stil stand strong for i noe tat my self worth is no longer determined by others but by de Lord. I stil have my times of sadness n disappoinment though. however, de difference compared to the time before i accepted de Lord is, whenever i feel down, i can find hope in my Lord. His deep deep love for me has rejuvenated my soul whenever i need some comfort. He is my shelter in de storm. He is my shepherd, never allowing harm to come my way. After i accepted Christ, never once have i felt hopeless=D
Yeah, so tats about it. Jus wana let all of u out there to noe tat, in de murky darkness, there is still hope! Do not give up!
May de Lord bless all of you! =)
Music washes away de dust of everyday's soul @ 2.6.06