Back 2 work
Hiax...after a day off, i m back 2 work again....
Got used 2 facing de four walls and experiencing de loneliness n boredom everyday already...haha, but wil definitely stil prefer 2 hv a companion 2 work with...
True, i hv my father as a companion...however, he has 2 go and meet customers all de time...hence, it is equivalent 2 having no companion...
b4 i wrote tis entry, WJ told me tat there will b no 1st 3 mths gathering again....hiax....realli wan a gathering...wonder how all my frens r getting on..hv they changed or r they stil de same old self?
Miss de gd old times we had together in SR...haha, remembered de particular incident whereby we climbed out of the window sill 2 take photo...haha, n when de relief teacher came in, he got de greatest shock of his life...he mus b tinkin tat tis bunch of students mus hv gone crazy!
Oso remembered de fun times we had at settlers's cafe n de bbq at boot's hs...
Realli miss those times..
Oh yah, n i wan 2 wish my dear fren Evonne a VERY HAPPY B'DAY!!! U r a yr older now...
Haha, even though all de ppl in our clique has gone 2 china n hence cannot celebrate yr b'day with u... fret not...cos there is stil ME!!!
haha, i wil leave it 2 u 2 judge if it is a blessing or a misfortune....
Aniwae, i wan 2 wish u success in wadever u do, n happiness, luck n wadever gd tings u can tink of....
U hv been a great fren....u hv taught me how 2 look at tings at diff perspectives n angles instead of judging a matter jus based on a single opinion or view...
So...once again... HAPPY B'DAY!!!
Wanted 2 go visit u at science centre 2day, but dunno stil can anot cos my father's office very busy...hence, mayb by de time i get there, u may hv gone hm already....
NVM.... i wil c how lah....
So stay happy n funky!!!!
Cambodia trip
Went to buy malaria pills yesterday...de first guardian i went 2 did not sell any malaria pills..i was quite surprised as i was told by my teacher n evelyn tat guardian SELLS malaria pills...Hence, i decided 2 patronise another guardian...tis time, they did sell de pills...however, they said tat different regions of cambodia require different medicine. Hence, i decided 2 call my teacher 2 ask her which part of cambodia we r goin.. However, she did not pick up her phone=(Hence, i decided 2 try my luck n bought de same pills evelyn bought, and risked not getting back my money if the pills r de wrong ones...phew...luckily evelyn called me tat nite, n confirmed with me tat de pills r the rite ones... De parmacist told me tat after comsumption of a pill, i may experience drowsiness, vomitting, n abdorminal pain... frankly speaking, when she said tat, i felt a bit afraid.The pills hv 2 b taken one wk b4 de trip, during the trip itself n 4 wks after de trip..haha, when i told my mum tat, she asked me if i was sure as she was scared i will die from an overdosage of medicine!Realli can't wait 2 go cambodia! I wonder how it wil b like sharing a room with evelyn...tink it will b fun! she is a very nice girl...I can't wait 2 meet de ppl in cambodia 2...i wan 2 experience their culture n interact with de ppl even though there may b a communication breakdown. Frankly speaking, i m stil havin trouble speaking some simple cambodian words... I tink it will b a very wonderful experience n i feel tat i wil gain a lot from tis trip...Realli can't wait 2 go 2 cambodia n experience their culture!^-^
Will everything b all right?
Hv i been betrayed?
I dunno...realli dunno....
Dun dare 2 ask..
Suddenly, i seemed 2 hv returned 2 de past again..no security, no stability, not feelin at ease and at peace with myself...
I hv 2 seek de lord again...
Only he can help me and understand me...
Afterall, he was de one who created me...
A ??? Day
Had Camy early in the morning today. For vocal training, i had 2 sing n raise my eyebrowns at de same time. It was quite difficult. Johann said tat raising de eyebrows would make singing easier as it will oso help raise de cheekbone. However, no matter how hard i tried, i still could not raise my eyebrow as high as possible...hiax...guess i need much more practice..
Went to sentosa in the afternoon. They had this small performance put up by de parrots. The trainer was trying his best 2 engage de audience as well as encourage dem to participate in de show. However, his efforts were met with indifference by the crowd..its quite sad actually...
Later on, i went 2 siloso beach in jeans as i did not bring shorts 2 change after church..haha, thus, i felt as if i was in an oven! I stil enjoyed myself though.
Overall, i would say tat today is quite a fun n meaningful day!=)
Feeling happy N guilty...
YEH!!!!! finally got my mp3! haha, so now, i m $165 poorer. The price is already considered reasonable for one which has 512mb. Wanted a lime green one at first, but decided on a red one at de last min...
The shopkeeper was very friendly...responsed to our demands with a smile=D. It really made de shopping trip much more enjoyable....
hiax...still feeling guilty...i skipped cell jus 2 buy de mp3. my conscience jus won't let me off...felt very happy after buying mp3. However, when i did my quiet reflection on de day's events in de balcony at nite, i started feeling guilty=(
An empty heart can nv b satisfied with material gains or other indulgences. He/She will only feel satisfied when he/she noes of god's deep luv 4 him/her and when he/she entrusts all her trust, happiness, sorrows to de lord...
Noone can fill tat empty void in de heart except de lord himself....
I feel tat i stil cannot accept de sayings of de above two verses. Whenever my heart feels empty, i wil either go shopping or try 2 shut off de emptiness by sleeping...
I tink it will take me some time 2 accept the sayings of those 2 verses...
Gathering
Today, my sis told me tat my sec class 4i has a class gathering. it will b held at sentosa. however, i dun really feel like going, cos i feel tat my clique will not go. Instead, there will only b one clique which will go n they will definitely stick together.
Haha, frankly speaking, i rather go 2 my 1st 3 mths JC gathering which is oso on de same day. i feel tat we will mix around more n not hv any cliques. Tis may b due 2 our smaller class size compared to my sec 4 class...
Sat, i m oso goin 2 sentosa with my family. wonder wat we r going 2 do there. really hope tat it wil b fun!
hiax...dunno whether 2 go cell 2 day, cos hv 2 buy mp3 by tml. mp3 shld hv been bought last week already, so i hv 2 buy it urgently by 2day. if not, i m scared i wil get a scolding...
aniwae, my cell is at jurong point, n after going 2 buy mp3 after working, i dun tink there is time 2 go 4 cell. how??? i feel guilty...guess i will fast 4 a day as punishment...
Why?
Y do i take people who treat me well 4 granted ?
Y m i so afraid 2 step out of my comfort zone, even though i noe tat stepping out of it will not necessary bring me hurts and problems?
Y do i switch of when it is hw time?
Y can't i b disciplined enuf?
Y can't i control my tempers when i m feelin angry?
Y can't i stop myself from saying somtin tat is hurtful only 2 regret it later?
Y is tat person so indifferent and treats me tis way?
Y can't i jus focus when i m doing somtin?
Y do i treat tat person so badly when i noe tat he/she means well somtimes?
Y do i hv different faces in front of different ppl?
Y do i hv so little courage somtimes?
Y do i hv so many qs but so little ans?
Feelings...
U noe wat...2day, my bro caught a locust home! Can u believe it! I tot he was lying 2 me at first, but it is true! My bro asked me if he shld keep de locust. guess wat did i say? Of course i said no! Thank goodness he has let it go already...Phew!
Today, mr fren oso ask me 2 b an usherer again for ISD. i rejected at first as i had to work. However, she really seemed in need of ppl. hence, i gave her my word. sometimes, i jus wonder is it because i m 2 accomodating resulting in ppl jus taking advantage of me...
My First Blog
haha, always tot tat havin a blog is like telling ppl all abt your daily life and feelings...hence, i hv always preferred a diary to a blog. den y m i blogging now? haha, cos i realized tat many of my frens r havin blogs...N hence have succumded to peer influence! now...tis is my first blog...so wat shld i write???
Today went to my father's office to work..did de normal tings a clerk should do like typing, emailing, scanning etc. it was very boring!but i should help my father cos he has provided me with a lot, and now when he needs my help, i cannot possibily turn him down rite? y does he need help from me tis inexperienced clerk?haha, cos his clerk has gone 4 an operation n need 2 rest for 1 MTH! Aniwae, 2day felt very lonely in de office. Noone 2 tok 2, noone 2 eat lunch with, noone 2 go hm with...before i could finish de day's work, i got chased out by de employee cos i did not hv de office key n they needed to lock up de office 4 de day cos they said it was time 2 go home...
aniwae..overall, today was a great day. i manage to go check out my 1st 3 mths JC blog n realise they had a gathering 2day! if i had known earlier, i have skipped going to work just 2 attend de gathering.. oo..i jus miss 1S07 so much!
Today, i oso had sweet talks with my sis. It really brought our relationship closer...( all tks 2 de lord..all de glory n praise should be given to him)